Happy springtime! I'm writing from NY and it's going to be 70 degrees today. I seriously couldn't be happier and I feel like a champ for making it through winter once again!
Last week my friend Meggie was confiding in me that she wants to develop her faith but doesn't even know where to begin. She feels as if God forgot about her and left her behind to suffer. She's angry, confused, and disconnected from any sense of a God or Universe. This anger mirrors her up-and-down relationship with her body as she's never felt fully at home in her body and feels as if she can only love herself when she is thin. She's been taking care of her body and learning how to love herself but she knows a huge part of the puzzle is her faith.
She said to me, "Ali, you make spirituality seem so fun! That's what I love about you. It's not this holier-than-thou kind of faith."
I shared with her that a lot of our friends laugh at me when I squeal about the coincidences and synchronicities in my life. When I laugh in delight that the message I've been needing to hear appears right in front of my face in the form of a note inside a Dove Promise. When I am in awe that the guy I'm dating not only mentions the name of my spirit guide, but goes on to tell me it's his favorite character in his favorite movie. When I smile knowingly when I see a feather drop in front of me (feathers can be seen as signs an angel is looking over you). When I know that the diagnosis of my chronic illness is absolutely a gift. It may be challenging but it's a gift.
I told her,
"Wow is my prayer!"
I am in awe at the perfection of life. In awe of how every single situation can be used for healing and learning. In awe of how I am in control of nothing. In awe of how perfect it is, even when we can't see it.
I told her to start making it a practice to celebrate and be wowed by life's precious moments!! It's a muscle and the more that you can notice the miracles, the more you will feel taken care of. The more you feel taken care of by God/Universe/whatever? The more at peace you will feel during the happiest moments and the most challenging.
I also shared with her that it's important to acknowledge the anger she has with God. If she wants to develop a relationship with God again, she can't be fake and bypass her feelings. I say this about the body too. If you are angry at your body, you cannot go straight to loving her!! It doesn't work like that. Imagine you are angry at a friend. Can you just say okay cool, I love you, all is normal!! No, you have to talk to her about how you were angry and why. You have to work through the shit! So get angry. Write a letter to your body or God. Get your feelings out. Tell your body or God how you'd like to feel and that you just aren't there yet, even though you want to be. I promise you, all you need is the slightest willingness and with the intention of healing behind you, this is a powerful exercise.
I've been receiving texts from Meggie about realizations she's had since our conversation and moments where she says "Wow is my prayer!"
Today, set the intention to be wowed! And let the wonders begin.
In awe of you,